brighterdays

Well, there really aren’t many who inspire me considering the majority of them are busy getting tangled up in the worldwide media instead of giving me something to be inspired by. The first celebrity who came to mind, though, was Angelina Jolie. For some reason her adopting her children gives me an idea that she takes chances and goes for what she believes in. So, I suppose Angelina Jolie!

1. A celebrity that inspires you  
2. Something you carry with you every where and why  
3. A letter to anonymous  
4. A song that makes you cry 
5. A guilty pleasure 
6. Describe your life one year ago 
7. Your definition of love 
8. Your first pet 
9. A picture of you from middle school 
10. Favorite beverage
11. Something you strongly believe in 
12. 50 things you like and 50 things you dislike 
13. Five songs you would have to have on a deserted island and why 
14. Your favorite quote 
15. A letter to someone you miss 
16. Your dream wedding in detail 
17. Your worst nightmare 
18. The most disappointing night of your life 
19. One family member you can not stand 
20. How do others label you and how do you label yourself 
21. The one person that hurt you the most
22. A secret ambition 
23. Future tattoos 
24. Your favorite food
25. Someone deceased that you admire 
26. A random fact that nobody knows about you 
27. Your dream car 
28. An occupation you strive for 
29. Your favorite thing to wear 
30. A list of what you have learned about life in the past 30 days.

I’m SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I’m EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I’m BLACK so I MUST carry a gun.
I’m BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz.
I’m JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I’m HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
I’m ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
I’m JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I’m GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I’m a lesbian, so I MUST have a sex-tape. 
I’m ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I’m a CHRISTAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.
I’m RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I’m ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
I don’t have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.
I’m REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I’m DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I’m SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I’m a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I’m a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.
I’m a DANCER, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I’m a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I’m RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a Goth or emo.
I’m a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I’m CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars. 
I’m NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I’m a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I’m POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I’m ITALIAN, so I must have a “big one”.
I’m EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!
I HAVE STRAIGHT A’S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I’m INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I’m a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I’m COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I hang out with GAYS, so I must be A GAY TOO.
I’m BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I’m PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I’m a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
I’m STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I’m a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly. 
I’m BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I’m a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I’m SINGLE so I MUST be ugly. 
I’m a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff.
I’m a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks.
I’m ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7. 

I’m CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.

I’m WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I’m black.
I’m GOTH so I MUST worship the devil.
I’m HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I’m NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I’m PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don’t wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I’m on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I’m YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I’m MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I’m PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don’t like the SUN so I MUST be an albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone.
I hang out with teenage drinkers and smokers, so I MUST smoke and drink too.
I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don’t.
I don’t like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
I tell people OFF, so I MUST be an over controlling bitch.
My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
I WATCH PORN so I MUST be perverted. 
I’m an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled. 
I’m INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
I’m WELSH so I MUST love sheep
I’m SCOTTISH so I MUST have ginger hair and wear a kilt.
I’m a YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo.
I’m a FEMINIST, so I MUST have a problem with sexuality and I want to castrate every Man on the earth.
I’m a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.
I WEAR A BIG SUNHAT when I go outside, so I MUST be stupid.
I like BLOOD, so I must be a VAMPIRE.
I’m an ALBINO, so I MUST be an evil person with mental abilities and is A MURDERER!
I’m ENGLISH, so I MUST speak with either a cockney or a posh accent, love tea
and Cricket, and have bad teeth.
I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: Past, present, and future.
I’m not the most POPULAR person in school, so I MUST be a loser.
I have a FAN CHARACTER, so I MUST be an annoying Mary-sue.
I CHAT, I MUST be having cyber sex.
I’m CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion
I’m SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blond blue-eyed lesbian.
I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IRRESPONSIBLE.
I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.
I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED.
I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.
I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.
I’m STRONG so I MUST be stupid.
I’m Australian so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroo’s
I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be a Lesbian.
I love marching band, so I MUST be a friendless freak.
I DRINK and SMOKE, so I MUST have no life.
I am friends with a CUTTER, so I MUST be a CUTTER too.
I cry easily, so I MUST be a wimp.
I can’t help pointing out mistakes so I MUST be an over-controlling perfectionist
I’m a PERFECTIONIST so I MUST check everything ten times, then burst into tears at one mistake
I DON’T LIKE to talk about my personal life so I MUST be having problems
I like FIRE so I must be an arsonist
I’m a PACIFIST so I MUST be a peace-loving Hippy thing.
I’m a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED.

Ten things about yourself

1. I do most of my exercising around 3 am each morning.
2. If my hair looks bad, my entire day is ruined.
3. I’m seen as either very sweet or a complete bitch.. yet I’m loved either way?
4. My skin color has been compared to a ghost on more than one occasion.
5. I drink 4 - 5 sprite zeros a day when we have it.
6. I have diabetes.
7. I’m tall.
8. I’m always here to listen if you need to get something off of your chest.
9. I think I look strange with my hair up due to my height.
10. I get attached pretty easily, heads up.

Nine things you’ve thought about recently

1. Summer ‘09.
2. Working out.
3. I wish Cameron’s phone didn’t randomly decide to fuck up so I’d have someone to text me all day.
4. The beach.
5. Me on a motorcycle.. bahahah.
6. Old parties my friends have thrown.
7. School.
8. Something to put for this last one.

Eight ways to win your heart

1. I second Lyvi, gotta’ be able to hold a conversation.
2. Trustworthy.
3. Sweet, not in a pathetic cheesy way.
4. Understanding & caring.
5. Not all about looks in a person.
6. Attentively listens when I need to talk about something.
7. More outgoing if anything.
8. Honest.

Seven favorite pieces of clothing.

1. Blue tank-shirt type thing from Delia’s.
2. Silver sandals.
3. “Taylor” jeans.
4. Gray top with crocheted chest.
5. Basketball shorts.
6. Gray sweater.
7. Mah winter booooots.

Six things to do before you go to bed

1. AT LEAST situps.
2. Go through certain texts. You wouldn’t understand.
3. Take out my contacts.
4. Do my insulin.
5. Get and put my cup of water between the bars of my bed against the wall.
6. Uh, pee!

Five things you wish you could say to five different people right this very moment

1. I miss you.
2. Karma’s a bitch.
3. You’ve changed and I fucking hate it.
4. You couldn’t be any more oblivious to the obvious.
5. Accept the fact that you’ve been given a life rather than bitching about how bad you have it.

Four things you’re doing right now

1. This.
2. Thinking.
3. Texting Jesse, Lucie & Steven.
4. Watching King of Queens.

Three things you’re scared of

1. Death.
2. Horrible things happening to loved ones.
3. The future.

Two things you want to do before you die

1. Become completely happy with every aspect about myself.
2. Skydive.

One confession 

1. Basically the same people, some more than others, consume my thoughts each and every day.

Today has been the most overbearingly fucking miserable day of my life, I swear to God. I have never been so impatient. So glad I got to sit at the same fucking picnic table for five more hours than I wanted to while staring at family members I had no idea who the hell they were converse with one another. OH JUST WHAT I’VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF. I know about ten people on each side of my family excluding my immediate family, I don’t get why I always become so excited for family reunions beforehand. Because this is always what I feel afterward.But hey, who would pass up a chance to sit around a park for seven hours with a group of bible thumpers? Oh, wait.. *raises hand* HUH.

God I love venting. Oh hey my phone turned off by itself for the at least fifth time today. KILLLL MEEEEE.

So much for those uh, 30 day challenges O_O I’ve had a lot of my mind lately. In the past 50 hours I’ve been able to hang out with Ashley, Jesse, Manda, Dee, Lexi, Justin, Nick, Jake, Alex, Morgan, Dennis, Sara, Steven, Max, and Erika. I am more than content with that outcome. I haven’t hung out with two of my best friends in about two weeks.. awesome. And uh yeah no one really texts me anymore, so. Life is just lovely -___-

There’s a part of me that wants to “tell it like it is.” There’s a part of me that wants to please everyone. There’s a part of me that wants to believe there’s more out there than anything I’ve heard of before. There’s a part of me that wants to believe it could always be worse. There’s a part of me that wants perfection. There’s a part of me that wants a little flaw in life to make things interesting. There’s a part of me that wants to relive my past as my present. There’s a part of me that wants my current present to become my permanent future. There’s a part of me that senses things are wrong. There’s a part of me that wants to give up. There’s a part of me that wants to fight. There’s a part of me that wants to believe there’s always hope for the hopeless. There’s my whole being that wants to know how I can feel so many different emotions and still be sane.